Strong and Patient~

So this week I wanted to publish a post a little bit more personnel and discuss exactly what is going on with me and where my head is at.

We canceled our IVF cycle roughly four weeks ago and the initial grieving has passed. I had a hard time dealing with the concept that we were not currently accessing treatment as well as coming to terms with the notion that we are not going to be parents this year.

I know that since it is the beginning of February that can seem like an extremely rash statement. However, that is the truth. When doing fertility treatment: specifically IVF, it is important to remember that the entire process from start to finish takes about two cycles. If you would add that to the typical 9- month pregnancy period you would see it takes almost an entire year before you get to meet your baby. When we signed up for the January cycle we were able to calculate an approximate due date at the end of November.

That meant a baby by Christmas, the only thing I’ve asked for in over 3 years!

Since we have postponed the cycle indefinitely the most I can hope for at this point is to be pregnant before the year is up.

I say this because I have great faith that IVF will bring us a baby. Not only do we have a 50-55% chance of success due to our age. But it is the first treatment plan that has given me a real sense of excitement and hope. As scary as IVF is to me, and as long as I f ought to stay away from it, I knew it was for us.

That is why it is so frustrating and heart breaking to not be able to do a cycle, because of a stupid little thing like money.

Money doesn’t buy happiness, but a baby would sure make me happy!!!

So that’s where I’m at right now. I’m filling my time with work, school, family, the support group and this blog as well as many upcoming DIY projects. We are also going to be working with a financial advisor that can hopefully give us a new perspective on our financial situation and give us some creative ideas on how to reach our goal in order to be able to start treatment.

I’ll keep you all posted, thanks for reading and please leave a comment!!!

Lena~